as i re-read all these things i wrote, in such meticulous order, i relive every single moment of that roller coaster ride i call a relationship.
yes, i still call it a relationship
from the declarations of my sanity to teachers and passers-by in the halls, to the condescending lectures by my mother of how she doesnt want to see me like that again and why would i travel there and be stupid
i drive there on auto-pilot, to painfully recall each sneaky encounter or worthwhile adventure.
more of these 'no subject' posts will follow as i muster the courage to open up those tattered, tucked away little notebooks that hold more of me than still exists outside of them.
- all of these 'no subject' posts
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my_heroine_x- April 16th, 2:44
pensive
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:35
emotional is based
on physical.
physical is based
on emotional.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:34
i wish you were
here.
i don't know
where 'here'
is but i know
it'd be better
with you.
it doesn't matter
where.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:29
i wrote a long
one about that
day. but the
most important
part was your
eyes.
i remember your
eyes. they were
passionate. they
were surrendering.
they were comforting.
they were needing.
they were accepting.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:29
i want to feel the way i felt.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:28
i want us to be
like that flame on
the highway.
neverending
hot
fueled form what makes the world run - love
untouchable
yet
irresistable
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:27
you're the
kind of
happy that
gives sad
a day
off.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:27
pain is forgotten
where gain comes from
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:26
love is the
battlefield - i'm
losing.
i hope i don't
have to retreat.
there is
always hope
of survival.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:25
i want him to want
it and surprise me
with it.
i want to be walking
down the hall, have
him grab my waist,
pull me into his
arms, and jsut
kiss me.
then i'd know.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:24
now i know why. the days
go by - your smile, your
laugh, you smell. all
the same - all enticing -
all draw me in.
want and need, drive and
desire, love and lust. now
i know why.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:13
you know,
but you have
no idea.
you know,
but you don't
care.
you know, but
it doesn't
matter.
you know -->
but will you
ever feel?
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:13
one more
chance...
to finish, to
be reconciled,
to close.
please, just
allow me
just one
more chance
and maybe,
just maybe,
it'll work.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:12
you are idle.
unwavering is
your rejection,
yet unmoving
in your exit
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:10
confusion
darkness envelops
the heart...
unclear vision
unknown want
but a light - tiny
flickering, dying.
it is you.
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:09
are you
destined to
be - or
destined to
fail?
am i destined
to be support
no matter
what you
outcome?
of course i'll
be here
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:06
it's deep beneath
my surface
so far down
it's hard to
notice.
your words
resounded hard. i
felt like i would
choke.
you didn't even
ask if it
hurt when it broke
i need you
i need you
i need you here
o comfort me
in my despair
my heart cries
out for you
but you don't
even care
Notice me
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:04
you can take the
shortcut to my
heart. [i'll never
time you, so don't
pace yourself.
i'll never disqualify
you, so don't get
discouraged. the
finish line is everlasting,
so never give up.]
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:03
i'm just a
common
misconception
in a world of
common misconcievers
full of
uncommon
concepts
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- my_heroine_x
- April 11th, 16:02
you're hurt, but
i can't help...
you're sad, but
i can't comfort
you're crying, but
i can't dry your
tears
i feel lost
